Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Thursday, November 1, 2007
wedding month
As I was jogging this morning listening to my usual NPR podcasts which generally focus on books, religion, & music, I found myself inspired to keep a record of what I hear that snags my thoughts.
Alan Alda was speaking about his recent memoir things i overheard while talking to myself. He quoted Marcus Aurelius--'confine yourself to the present'. I think that was it. Alda applied it to living in the NOW. Now is now--in 5 seconds it will be gone & of the past.
Making the most of your time here on earth is what comes to my mind. How often I forget when I indulge in self-pity, quick to anger, or lack compassion.
Friday, October 12, 2007
bookstores
I feel like I have very little to write today. Truly, I am waiting for the clock hour hand to touch 4pm so I may leave this job of boredom & relish my weekend.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
'The Marriage Builder'
1. Whenever the goal of our behavior is essentially to change the other person--whether the change is good or bad--we are wrong. Unless there is the purpose of communicating love based on an awareness ofour spouses' needs, we qualify as manipulators, not ministers.
2. I cannot add to the fact of my husband's security, but I can add to his feelings of security.
3. Until I am aware of that my needs are ALREADY met in Christ, I will be motivated by emptiness to meet my needs. When I truly know this I can give out of my fullness in Christ.
4. The stain of selfcenteredness requires many washings before it no longer controls our motivation.
5. When an emotion arises within us, acknowledge to ourselves & God how we feel allowing ourselves to inwardly feel the emotion. Then emotional expression is legitimate only when it does not conflict w/our fulfilling God's purposes.
Ok that is all I feel like typing now.
...to bring you some random facts. I was "tagged" by Marianna in a blogging game, so here goes.
The Rules:
1. I have to post these rules before I give you the facts.
2. Each player starts with 8 random facts/habits about themselves.
3. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog (about their 8 things) and post these rules.
4. At the end of their blog, they need to choose people to get tagged and list their names.
5. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
Here are my 8 weird facts/habits--
1. I shake my bath towel out before I use it as to avoid any yesterday hairs clinging to me as I wipe off my showered body. Hair (even mine) creeps me out! That is why I plan to chop my locks after the wedding.
2. To quell my anxiety about leaving a house with a possible running toilet, I stare into the bowl convincing myself that the water is tranquil & no sound emits. It always is tranquil & soundless, but I must convince myself.
3. I used to receive a box of Grape Nuts cereal for every birthday. My roommate in college even continued this tradition 1 year. It has been awhile now.
4. I must pee right before I slip into bed as guided by my childhood fear of wetting the bed.
5. Another hair oddity--I collect my fallen out long hair by sticking it to the shower wall as I wash it as to avoid a clog!
6. I absolutely love old films and Columbo.
7. I lived in Santa Cruz, Bolivia for 4 years as a child. My parents were missionaries--my father created a Christian bookstore (still thriving today) & my mom taught kindergarten.
8. I was a cheerleader for 2 years then began my volleyball & basketball 'career'. Anyone who knows me now would never ever believe that I was possessed by the cheering bug.
So you can conclude that most of my 8 are related to OCD. ;~)
Thursday, September 6, 2007
more than average
Why is it that I think I am meant for mediocrity? I strived ardently in high school & college to do my very best. To then end up an assistant librarian @ a local hospital. This is what I believe my life has become...average. Yet I say 'end up' as if I am circling a death pool. Now, at any moment, my last breath will touch the air around me, but I am STILL here--now. So I too can become great if I believe more than just average. There are several steps I want to take in life...
- partake in a drawing class
- learn calligraphy
- dance lessons
- piano lessons
- become confident
- read the Bible all the way
- keep reading books
- be less mean
Well the list can go on, but I do not care to minimize this list by making it too long.
It is particularly healthy for me today to see that I do have goals besides the normal ones...get married, have kids, find a better job, etc...
Speaking of jobs, I am so very bored @ my current job. I was spoiled for 10 years working 3 twelve hour shifts per week...now I trudge to the library 5 days a week...to fill a stapler, check out a book, answer stupid questions, fix the jammed copier, etc...though I do like my coworkers & have learned some very interesting medical 'things'. I greatly miss my old job...today I can cry over it. 'The grass is always greener' mentality is preferrably seen as green grass with holes & brown dead spots. My other job as a unit clerk on a labor & delivery floor was very stressful, but I WAS MOVING. Now I am sedentary & unmotivated. I need movement. Movement needs me.
That's all.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
that's all.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
My mom is meeting me following work to drive to a potential florist. I am fighting this whole wedding planning. The less stress alternative sees Kevin & I marrying in Italy w/honeymoon to follow barring our vows are honored. Then flip flop I want to meet him @ the end of the aisle to exchange our vows in front of family & friends. So I have to keep positive. Mind over matter. My mind tends to bend & break depending on the situation. I am working on me...famous unfulfilled words! No, really, baby steps & saying I am OK for progress or digress made.
Friday, June 1, 2007
Kevin (fiance) drives to Atlanta today with his brother to see the Kings of Leon @ the Tabernacle...a venue that is both cool in architecture but hot in temperature. We caught the Roots there a little late & winded our way to the balcony. Stagnant air & crowded. It is my least favorite concert thus far.
Why turtle?
I viewed the PBS special on a loggerhead's approx. 1.5 year solitary journey from Mexico to Japan to lay her eggs. Her perseverance (innate) & slow, fluid movement were beautifully inspiring. She knew for the sake of her life & offspring, she could not give up life no matter the difficulty or treachery that lay in her path. She kept forward motion. That is living.