Why is it that I think I am meant for mediocrity? I strived ardently in high school & college to do my very best. To then end up an assistant librarian @ a local hospital. This is what I believe my life has become...average. Yet I say 'end up' as if I am circling a death pool. Now, at any moment, my last breath will touch the air around me, but I am STILL here--now. So I too can become great if I believe more than just average. There are several steps I want to take in life...
- partake in a drawing class
- learn calligraphy
- dance lessons
- piano lessons
- become confident
- read the Bible all the way
- keep reading books
- be less mean
Well the list can go on, but I do not care to minimize this list by making it too long.
It is particularly healthy for me today to see that I do have goals besides the normal ones...get married, have kids, find a better job, etc...
Speaking of jobs, I am so very bored @ my current job. I was spoiled for 10 years working 3 twelve hour shifts per week...now I trudge to the library 5 days a week...to fill a stapler, check out a book, answer stupid questions, fix the jammed copier, etc...though I do like my coworkers & have learned some very interesting medical 'things'. I greatly miss my old job...today I can cry over it. 'The grass is always greener' mentality is preferrably seen as green grass with holes & brown dead spots. My other job as a unit clerk on a labor & delivery floor was very stressful, but I WAS MOVING. Now I am sedentary & unmotivated. I need movement. Movement needs me.
That's all.
